Sometimes i need to do a little soul searching on my own. i've been meaning to catch up on some things that have been posted on Fet and i found a very interesting post today.

There were a few words in a post that gave me some clarity. Not clarity about how i feel about Master, just confirmation on what He does for me. i don't know if i am making sense.

Let me see if i can explain.

Master makes me feel warm. He makes me feel settled, safe and home. He gives me the feeling of openness. i share everything with Him. He gives me the wisdom to make better decisions. He is the wisdom. Master gives the the energy, inspiration and motivation for life. Life to serve and please Him.

i know i mentioned before that i would be in the wrong place if it weren't for Him. Today a scenario of what i would have done in the past ran through my mind.

An ex boyfriend text me this afternoon. In the past i would have asked him to come up and go out. He would have ended up back at my place and we would have fucked. None of this is the right decision. It would have put me back into a place where i should not be. Master will not allow this. He knows what is best for me and for my life. Not only does He train me to be what He wants, but He looks out for my life and how He wants that to be as well. He only wants what is best for me. Aside from the fact that i am for Him only.

When it comes to our relationship, Master is very generous. He does discipline me, but does it appropriately. He is patient with me and continues to help me grow and learn. Master is diligent. He continues to make me a better person, for Him as well as how i react to others around me.

i am beyond thankful for Him.

i've done other reading as well that i've found interesting and will share that with you tomorrow.